The Love That Carries Me.

Though my skin and bones may falter.
Though my soul has since faded away.
I will rise, out of ashes, into solace.
For you are with me.
My staff; my shield, they shall guide me.

Two Years.

I just realized on this day two years ago I was just freshly out of the behavior health hospital(mental hospital). When I came out, two years ago, I thought life would be easy. I thought that once I came out that nothing could touch me. Because how can life get worse now? But it did, I wasn't invincible and I wasn't sane. I didn't listen to the advice I got and I just went downhill even further. Even after a year being out I look back; I was still miserable but I was getting to be better. 2010 was a bad year. I missed out on a lot of good things. But for the past 4 years of my life I have so I shouldn't be too down about it. I wish i never met her. She ruined everything. But I was naive and believed the words across the borders. But even now, I am not completely sane. Sure I have a girlfriend(Who I recently proposed too) and it seems like this whole Army thing might just work out for the better. But I am still alone; alone in my thoughts and feelings where no one can reach me. I don't think it will ever go away. I believe it's just a side effect of being depressed your whole life. So, at this time of the night, I will sleep alone, in the safety of my conscience and fully awake to the knowledge I've learned. The knowledge of grace; and that redemption is real. I want to say something profound to the reader of this, something that will stick with you long after I pass away. So, if I die, before I wake tomorrow, I want to say one thing:


Your story is real, and the adventures you take will hurt; you will suffer. There will be highs; even moments of invincibility. But by the end of the tale, salvation will come, in the form of angels Angels that are bond by hope and sincerity.

Sex.

What is sex? Is sex something that is just physical?....or is it more? I like to think that sex is one of the most, if not the most, important parts of life. What I mean is that sex can either help you find a soul mate, or it can ruin your life. Not many things in this world can do that. Sex is lust, we all know that. But can sex also be love? I believe it can be. I've been around the block(more than my own good) and I have to say that love is out there, because through having sex with a girl, I found my future wife. Now, I am not saying I have sex with people just to see if there is a click, no, not at all. I am merely stating that this "witch hunt" for sex isn't needed. We should regulate sex between partners, but not seclude it from our lives. The value of sex is a very low price right now, and It's disappointing to see it how it is. We must respect sex, as it once was respected. Because after all, isn't love worth it?

Side Note: This is totally a sex awareness blog /sarcasm

Jenny.

I hope you are proud of me.