I Won't Forget

Soon you'll forget but I just can't,
I remember,
I remember everything,
All the times when no one ever came to get me,
All the nights when I was scared,
And when it got too weird,
All the tracks that shaped and changed me,
Inside of speeding cars,
And lying on your floor,
We were living in a broken world,
We turned it up and then we watched the city burn,
It was the song that saved my life,
And I can't forget her,
I won't forget her.

The Replaceable One

It seems that no matter how hard I try I always fail.
I fail so many times that I should be used to it.
But I'm not.
Every time hurts more and more.
Every scar starts to bleed.
My wounds never get the chance to heal.
I look back to april 24th 2009.
I realize nothing has changed.
Nothing ever will.
My depression will always find a way to rear its head.
Even in the happiest of times, it's always there.
I think I was meant to suffer.
While others shine, I'll be in the shadows.
I regret not being something better.
But the path was so dirty, I couldn't see.
I went down many paths, all of them bad.
I met many people, who I wronged.
I met many people, who wronged me.
It seems like I never met that person,
Who truely cared and loved me.
I always needed someone but no one ever stayed.
It's not their fault.
I wasn't worth it.
It was only high school.
But know I'm out.
Out in the real world.
My future is dim and the past is bright.
You learn from your past but die in the future.
I used to believe "hope" meant something.
That it's meaning was profound
And could rally the lonely together.
But what was once profound is lost.
Lost in the sands of time.
I have become what is needed to people.
A person who can be dropped off the road.
And wait for the next failure.
I will be tossed aside over and over.
I am nothing more.
I am replaceable.

Ghost Of Me

I don't know what to write.
I feel like shit and entirely confused.
I had everything planned out.
Now all of it is falling around me.
I'm caught in the middle of the pieces.
I have to watch each one fall to the ground.
But now I will be picking up the pieces.
They are getting so hard to find.
It's getting too dark.
I wonder why the stars don't sit to guide me.
I pick up a piece.
It's a picture of you.
It slips through my fingers.
I have become the ghost of me.

Blue Skies

I've been to both knees
Raise my hands up to the skies, forgive me
Is something out there far beyond the clouds?
I'm asking help me
Help me to see the world
Through baby eyes and hold me closely
I need a fresh start on the roller coaster
Made for coasting
It's time to wake up, time to make up
Time to shake these memories
It's time to leave the past in the past
And lace up a new set of shoestrings
I want the world to know I've got your back
Through up and down, see
So we can sit together, side by side
Through amazing

So I've broken every bone
And fought through what felt never-ending
I thought my head was made of sadness
But my heart is mending
I scream at sunsets
Give applause to what I can't control
Then somehow laugh at how
The moon divides an ocean solo
I wanna be that ocean
I wanna shine like that

And when I'm gone
I won't go screaming in the end
I'll give you everything my life amounts to
So raise your life up with me
And baby, let's go dancing 

I'm calling on blue skies.