It Is Fate.

I told myself if no one texted/called me today I would kill myself tomorrow. So far no one has. I have to walk to work tomorrow so I 'll just run into traffic. I think I actually might do it this time. I'm not afraid to die anymore. It is fate. I have to do this. I can't be afraid anymore. I feel so worthless, I have to stop this pain. It's been five years of struggle and now its time. No one has tried to help me. I am screaming for help. I feel so alone. It's hard to type when you are shaking. I wrote my suicide note a week ago, now I can use it. I should have done this a long time ago. I'm sorry.