Volcanoes and Tornadoes.

I don't know what this world has in store for me. Everyday is a new adventure I don't feel like taking. The past is marked with pain and the future is stained with anger. I can't tell you how it really is, but I can tell you how it feels. I can't seem to separate the things that are in and out of my control. I lose consciousness every time I see her. I don't know what I'm doing when I read her words. I don't know why I can't realize what I have now. Maybe that's why they call it heartbreak. Heartbreak is something that takes an eternity to heal, if ever. I saw the first girl to ever break my heart today. I thought I was gonna break down; but I didn't. I looked at her as if she never caused my first suicide attempt. I found that to be interesting. I am also over Danielle, my first "love". I don't have emotions toward them anymore. I still can't seem to get over Erika. I have no idea why. But I think I just need time. I have a great girlfriend now that loves me for me and I will realize what I have soon, hopefully. I just want a stable life for once. Everything is too much for my own good. My lungs are torn and my heart is broken. So, this blog ends on a note. A note of a volcano meeting a tornado. Where only one will survive. Only time can tell.