True Bond

I feel distant. As if I am on a different world.  I want to be on earth though. I want to experience love. I want to see what dreams are made of. I want a fix in those heroin eyes. All these things I want but I can't have. Even though I'm leaving in 6 months I want to feel a bond with someone. I think that's what humans need. I think that is the meaning of life. To find someone that you feel so comfortable with that nothing can break it. Whether its a boyfriend, girlfriend, family, or even a pet. Something that makes you want to wake up in the morning and not just whither away into nothingness. I have yet to feel that bond, so maybe it's not the truth. But to me, it sounds pretty damn good. I want to do something amazing. Something that can't be found in words or pictures. I can't seem to figure out what that is yet. Hopefully I will, but nothing in life is guaranteed. I've met some pretty amazing people in my life and circumstances have broke us apart. I wish I could do over everything. I could do so much better. But what would mistakes mean if they were never made? So I sit here, contemplating my life, Wondering what life has in store for me now. Feel free to experience life with me. I'm sure it will be worth your time. I'm sure we can develop a true bond.