Anxiety Can Kill A Good Man

I remember the look in your eyes, when you told me this was goodbye. Oh please, not here, not now. This past weekend i was at work. And i had several anxiety attacks. I don't know why. But i felt like my heart was gonna burst. It was random. As of right now, I'm not suicidal. But for the past 5 days or so, i have been. I cried two nights in a row and even in front of my mom. I don't know whats happening to me. Also, i don't really have any girls on my mind. Of course i want one still. But it doesn't get a hold of me. That may change tomorrow. I would desperately seek the truth of my life. I'll take that truth at any cost. Because I am broken.I live in a broken place. Its as if the world was broken and we had to hold our hands against the wound to stop the bleeding. I feel like that. I want a girl to hold my heart. I want her to blow air into it and blow it up again. I want it to be the heart i once had. I want it too beat for her. Because without her i am nothing. She will save me. I think she will. I am told that if you have patience good things will come in time. But where was i when i missed my time? I feel as though i lost my way. That time wont let me go. If i could go back all those years, i would do it all better, i swear. I can remember those dark nights. I remember no one coming and pulling me off the ground. I was away from the sun. And the moon. Yet, there was a song, that saved my life. It was afterglow by INXS. The song speaks volumes in my head.