You Found Me

I am alive. And even though i may be dead tomorrow. Tonight, i am alive. I once said that i would kill myself if someone didn't come along. Ladies and gentlemen, she has come. Oh but not a girlfriend, but something more. Mia came over today after work. She talked to me, about everything. She talked about things that didn't even make sense, and yet somehow, she made them make sense. It was a good two hours that we talked. I couldn't find one flaw in her words. She told me she read in my blog about my fake smiles. She asked if i gave fake smiles to her. And for the first time in my life, i knew, that my smile was real. We talked about things that we never knew we had in common. I don't want to get too into this, cause then it will sound like we are dating. That's the last thing i want you to interpret from this. She made me smile. She made me happy. She made me believe. Believe that God makes things new. That forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness. She has found me, lying on the floor. And with her grace, she has lifted me up. I never thought someone would dedicate even a second of their time to me. But she has dedicated her life. She has told me truths, when all i have ever known is lies. I don't know what this world has in store for me but i know i want to spend the rest of it with her, friendship or more. Now comes the difficult part. I have to convince myself not to like her, in the way that pushes the limits. I will try my hardest. For now i am okay, in the safety of her conscience. So this marks goodnight to me. Mia, sleep tonight, knowing someone is breathing because of you.